Alright! Take 3 of this very serious installment of Blogbabble here.
I am both pissed the hell off & kinda glad, in a weird way, that my Microsoft Word app expired. That first attempt/draft of this was nine pages too long & I ran into too many tangents on this subject. So many UNRELATED tangents on this specific entry that it was damaging. I admit, I get carried away with tangents, that's why I was never good at essay writing. Then I ran into the issue I didn't want to run into, which was unintentionally sounding like a self help guru. As much as I don't want to say it, this is one where I can't sit here & say "Read this blog, it will fix all your issues." Also, I think self help gurus are a bunch of slimeball scum. They're close to being false hope charlatans like 'Peter Popov'. Thinking about my approach, I decided to do the obvious, tackle the subject the Blogababble way, the opinionated way, express my thoughts like I always do. Did you guys expect any different?
So despite expressing my hate towards Microsoft for having a 'pay to use' sales model, I gotta say that was a well needed inconvenience. Not saying inconveniences are great, but there are the few times where an inconvenience is a blessing in desguise. So in the words of the captain of the Titanic, let's sink diss bitch!
PS: Now before I get started, let me get something clear out of the way before I forget. I'm going through a few levels of mental health. I'm not saying Depression is on par with Autism or anything else on that level, I'm going through this in levels & plus I'm writing this in free form. If you want to read something more...organized (Like something from a medical journal that is only read by psychologists & doctors), I'm sure they're available for the downloading elswhere online. Go read that if you want a (I'm gonna be self depricating & honest here) more educated view on this! This is just my own little ramblings on here! I don't claim to be a medical expert, I just write what I see.
I fucking hate how this country (Can't really speak for other countries) handle the issue of mental health or mental wellness. Then again some of these places got universal health care, so there's that & nobody's working a 9 to 5 while having a broken rib because they need the money for the medical expenses. Looking into one's mental state is very much used as a last resort in many cases, but it shouldn't be. People will hold it off, not even take into account if this is a problem that could involve a psychologist or therapy until shit happens like that person explodes into an implosion doing stuff that affects everyone (Tantrums, mental breakdowns or the now turned meme going postal) & then that's when finally these fucking people sit there acting like they didn't know a single thing, giving the typical response "Wow, that person really was battling some demons." No fucking shit!! Now to be honest, it's after the fact when everyone notices the signs & that's when people feel they could have done something about it. I'm not blaming those people, I'm blaming the people that choose to ignore such matters, dismiss it as 'just a phase' or think of mental wellness as 'That hippie crap'. Then when that person finally blows up, they sit there in their fake sympathetic masks saying "I did nothing but help that poor person. It's a shame this is how he ended up messing up his life. Oh well." There's that recent word I've been hearing alot called 'Toxic People'. To those of you thinking this is some cheap millenial shit, they're not wrong. Toxic people are real & they didn't have to jump into vats of toxic waste in order to become toxic. The only toxic people I ever cared for were Troma's 'Toxic Avenger' & 'Muk' from Pokemon. Toxic people can really fuck you up & you do have to avoid them wherever you can, but the opposite can be said for people who uplift you or steer you in the right direction in life. Which brings up something I do have to tell people. It's very fucking difficult to deal with toxic people, especially if they are family, whether it be parents, cousins, uncles, aunts, Family. I've been dealing with this shit for a long ass time & I tell you, the only way to deal with them is to avoid them. I don't know about parents, seeing as I still live with mine, but all other family can go choke on a fucking rod. I don't have any contact with any of my family, half because they are a bunch of pieces of shit, others because for some reason they don't visit anymore & I do have to blame my parents for that...or the other family. I live in a very divided family & we're fucking Mexican. The bigger the family, the wider the division I guess.
Then you get the whole "We're going to pick & choose who is suffering from mental illness & who isn't!" Case in point, all these mass shootings we've been having ever since Virgina Tech in 2007. I could say even after Columbine, but at that point between 99 & 07, we weren't as inundated with mass shootings that we were between 2007 & now in 2018. I'm appalled by the recent shooting which had people debating whether it was a gun issue or a mental health issue. Hey guys, I'm gonna quote that one little girl from those taco commercials from a few years ago, "WHY NOT BOTH?" On top of that you got the racial aspect of this, if it's a brown to black person who decides to shoot up a joint, it's all a heinous crime, "Those guys deserved to get shot or sent to butt rape prison becuase all of them were born to be serial killers so thank god they were killed before the death toll rose." When a white guy goes on a shooting spree, "It's all a misunderstanding, he was expresso'ing himself & we should send him into a rehab-like mental institution/resort where he can draw shapes with crayons & go to feild trips to Sequoia Park!!" Like I said, the whole surge in mass shootings is both a mental & a gun problem, case in point that emo fuck who shot up sandy hook. I remember I was at home when that shit happened & a day after the news broke the mom of this piece of shit was on camera saying "I didn't know he was mentally messed up. I bought guns for him so he could have a stress release." That bitch is an enabler & nobody cared to blame her for it. When Treyvon Martin got shot, the news media was quick to talk about how his mom spoke ebonics & how she sounded all THUG when she spoke at the trials, making it sound like she herself started the whole thing. This is so a racial thing, remember that shooting at the country music concert in Vegas a few months back? Every YouTube news channel (Mostly Fox News, CNN, CBS) were saying it's all ISIS & some Muslim extremist trying to cramp the fun out of 'REAL 'MURICAN MUZAK'. Then it was found out the shooter was white, all of a sudden these people were clearly being hypocrites by saying, "Well you see. This man was suffering from a mental disorder where this & that happens..." Every time some white kid does some heinous shit, we see the psychologists talk & we get those Shakesperean trajedy stories of their lives & it becomes nationwide news if they're bangable (Casey Anthony). With everyone who isn't white we see the crime, then the consequence, THE END and now let's watch a viral video that was uploaded to the internet a few weeks ago. Sad truth. Not all crimes like these are mental health issues, some people are just fucking sociopaths who don't care for actual human life. Whenever cases, not just crimes, but tragedies like a suicide or something like a missing person is put into the public eye, the mental state of that person is an afterthought. I'm hazy on the facts, so correct me if I get some of the details wrong but there was a kid with a huge facination with Dungeons & Dragons, he had some mental disorder so he felt his escape lied within the game & the character he created, decided to play the part of his character & went into the sewer system where he got lost and sadly killed himself. Rather than see that the kid wasn't in the best of mental health, the sensationalistic tabloid media decides "Let's blame this pen & paper game! The devil made it to recruit people into their cult, even though it is public knowledge that the game was made by hippie nerds who love fantasy & weren't Tolkien fans. This is a fact that I can call fact, true story bro, Gary Gygax & the D&D team involved in that first incarnation of the game weren't fans of Tolkien. It happens from time to time, blame the things the person liked, rather than question whether that person was alright in the mind. Nowadays, we don't get that as much except from those dumbass fringe groups like the anti-gay leagues & the more crazier ones. I think someone from the Westboro Baptist Church said that Spongebob was making kids gay. As you can see, nobody in their right mind is banning Spongebob, the show is still on the air (That comment was made two decades ago) & parents still show their kids spongebob...mainly because all us folks who grew up watching that are now parents! Xcept meee!!!! So thankfully we aren't getting the whole "We gotta go up in arms & ban something because some murderer likes it" attitude anymore, but we're still ignoring mental health where it should apply.
Social media enables both a sorta deeper understanding of stuff like depression & any other mental disorder that we may not of been aware of, but sadly it also gives everyone this chance to say anything is a warning sign for an impending mental illness. If you go into a room & forget what you were looking for, then you have early symptoms of Alhzeimers! Thee worst one I have seen one too many times is the one where If you had a bad day in school or work & feel sad/angry for that exact day, then that means you're suffering from depression. Let's make a clarification here between depression & having a bad day or the more pedestrian term 'having the blues'. With sadness it's easy to get out of that & you're happy until more sad, angry, stupid shit that happens. With depression you could be having the best day of your life, but the depression hangs like a dark cloud above that will strike with lighting during that happy day. Depression can't just be cured by a comedy club performance, that's why people suffering from clinical depression get perscribed anti-depressants & why not everyone should go to a clinic with the intention of getting perscribed Xanax or any of those anti-depression pills. That's why I'm tired of these clickbait articles, these fucking memes & these (A term I just learned which perfectly describes what I'm about to talk about next) Tumblr Depression posts. All this shit about people using their depression (Or so they think they have depression) as a fashion statement. "Look at me, I got a xanax pill on my touge, RAWR XD." That shit annoys me because of course like anything involving a group of people & an issue (Political or not), the stupid ones end up being the voice & face of the issue, rather than the people who aren't loud, doing it for attention or shysters.These Tumblr Depression people & the clickbait sites are the reason why you have people who look at depression as some lie used for cheap sympathy or as the older generation generalizes it as "The pussification of the younger generation." The attention whores don't speak for people who are actually suffering from depression, the really depressed are just trying to make it through the day & they aren't inerested in getting likes or reblogs or reshares or retweets or any of that shit that simply won't matter in the long run. Just like everyone else who doesn't feel happy or energetic are trying to make it to happier, we're just trying to make it to those happier, simpler days.
I'm not all for sharing about depression, or typical personal problems online (Unless it's related to the topic or something where people can be able to help like a Gofundme or something like that. Oh I'll get to crowdfunding & E-Commerce sometime on here) because one of two things happen. Nobody, except those close to you, care or all you get is just text on screen that doesn't meant as much. That's how it goes, I'll get to how sometimes telling strangers personal shit is not a good idea. Then there's the anonimity of the internet, some bad comments might set someone, who's not right in the mind, off. We got suicide memes, hahahahah he dead! David Carridine, can you please sign my belt buckle? Fucked up!
If you talk about the issues in person, that's one thing, but online all you can get is text on screen. That's why I would rather talk to someone about the inner personal turmoil I'm going through in person than online where anyone can see it or where it's easier to share such personal stuff, but even then online or offline, people are capable of breaching trust. It's one of the lowest acts anyone can do. Telling somone another person's troubles is horrible & that's a fact to take with you to the bank. Dont' even give me that whole "They didn't ask if it should be kept a secret or not, so I told everyone I knew" wiseass response because the second someone comes to you for consolation or to vent, a contract of trust between friends is automatically established which requires no contract or handshake because you're both friends! Friendship trumps all! I won't share her name but there was someone from high school who came to me countless times to vent about her personal stuff. I tried my best, I admit I'm no psychologist or therapist, but here's where we both succeeded. We never told anyone about our baggage because we aren't bitches & also we were the only friends we got left. Dem post graduation blues, I tell you what. Still, I never told anyone, nor did we ever think of telling parents. We both had bad experiences with sharing our woes with people, both to so-called friends & family, so we opened up to eachother & I admit that was very therapeutic for both of us. We started talkiing online via PM/DM's, then we decided "Let's meet up in person." and so we did. Sadly that ended when our schedules didn't sync up, which sucks, but that was neither her or my problem. Blame life! That's why people don't open up so easily, because we have become the subject of many chatty discussions & the worst part is having some random stranger (That your friends & family know more than you do) coming up to you either giving advice or cheap sympathy or pity. I know, the intentions are well & all, but they don't see that this is an issue that was meant to be spoken of in private, not to anyone else. Unless you're a therapist or know of someone who went through the same shit, you are just a nosy, chatty bastard bringing up ones personal problems & possibly a drama whore who jerks off to real life drama. They exist, I'm not exaggerating. Nobody needs to know about my life or my traumas or the things that keep me from living a normal life like everyone else. If I want to talk about my turmoils, maybe I will if I feel like it. Even though I feel I can handle problems myself, there are moments when I do have to tell people about specific stuff or else the wrong people will start spreading rhumors & of course we live in such a world where people would rather believe in rhumors than to believe the fact. Crying 'Fake News' won't help none in this instance, oh but it works well when talking about the bullshit. Once again I can't shake off talking politics. Despite what I said, you do get strangers who just outright tell everyone about their problems & there have been way too many times where I had to stand by & hear of some guy's divorce or family home in San Diego or their messed up little mental disorders. I must emanate some kinda scent that tells people "Hey, I like to hear people's personal problems. Tell me how you lost faith in the political system when Eisenhower got into office!" I hear alot of sad shit, can't one of these people tell me some good news? My only guess (correct me if I'm wrong) is these people are using this method as a last resort, being ignored alot can do that. Not everyone can afford a therapist, or in the case of here in California, all the therapists are in rich people areas! That says alot about the state of the class system there. Despite not wanting to hear it, I won't go out & yell at these people for telling me their depressing stories. All I can do is listen, nod & provide some input. The last thing you want to do is ignore them, but also you do have to admit to them that you can't solve thier problems, as much as we would like something that will fix everything. I think that works more than setting someone up for failure.
To add to what I just said & including the internet, (Now we're back on topic) I guess that's also why people share their personal shit on Facebook, it's mostly a cry for help, but also people love to feed into that trouble. That's why Reality Television was as poopular as it was. The issue of mental health even extends to the internet content creators. Of course you got people who will not mention their personal stuff anywhere, they are keeping it away from the public because why should you guys know about that. I won't be surprised if a few decades from now there are all these tell-all books & documentaries that go through the mental stuff from people like Nostalia Critic or AVGN & how these videos either made it better or worse. You also have the people who will talk about it, but talk about it as themselves on camera, without the costume or the persona they bring about in their work.
One video I highly reccomend (but sadly he took it down. Don't know the reason but I understand) where Brad Jones talked about his scuffles with suicide & I liked it. It was very informative, it got people talking & in a strange way he tried to make some light humor of it, but not enough to deviate from the point of his video. Then you get the ones that use their public persona to talk about it & I think that approach goes into a very dangerous area. For example, Spoony. I'm not going to judge him for what he did on one of those 'Ultima' video game reviews. It was a later release (When they went 3D) in which Spoony becomes so angry & frustrated at the game, the review stops, he leaves off camera & comes back with a stack of all his Ultima games. It's all quiet, he starts talking about how he would spend days with his brother playing these games until it gets him into a bit of a rage on camera. This isn't some rage done for humor, this was real rage. I have no idea what he was going through, but I don't hold anything against him. He must have been going through some heavy shit & I don't think this was just a typical 'Bad day' as anyone would call it. Now, everyone in his fanbase was willing to help, show support, being cool about it. You won't get any arguments from me about that & throughout the years it was clear he was suffering from either depresion or a bipolar disorder. Where I will be saying "You're being an asshole & taking advantage of your support group." is with what he's done this past year or two. He's been saying all his projects are on hold until he can deal with his mental state for over two years now, making promises of projects he wants to work on. I think he wanted to make a 'Spoony' movie around the same time people like Brad Jones, Linkara & James Rolfe were making movies out of their characters. That was a few years ago & he decided he should get paid for doing streams where all he does is talk shit to his audience who are just helping him or asking him legit questions as to whether he'll do anything else besides live streams. I think then & there your fans are loosing respect for you & you are using your problems to be a dick to everyone. I'd understand if he would apologize & maybe even come out with a video updating his audience that he is trying to get to some videos done, but real life is getting in the way. Lots of content creators do that from time to time, but nah. He's busy doing live streams & bullshitting his audience. I know he's not reading this, but if you are reading this Spoony (Noah Antwiler), take what I just said here as advice & not as a harsh display of hate. I do miss the movie reviews, especially for cheesey, corny shit like those Reb Brown movies (Specifically that one where Reb Brown is a soldier strangling women. I'm not joking. His review of that movie was hilarious as hell) & those VHS board games. I like your video game reviews & movie reviews, but those goddamn video game streams, they're cool once every two months or once a year, but everyone is sick of those video game streams. Please do something else.
I mentioned people taking time off their creative endevors or internet job in order to deal with personal stuff. That's understandable, but the ones that I may have to be a little critical about are the ones that say "I have depression, I have to take some time off." and they end up spending more than a few months off. Now if you do have depression & work on videos where you have to be happy all the time, that's very understandable. Here's what I want to know, how many times does something like that work at a typical 9 to 5 job? I tend to think not as much as we would like to think. Imagine going up to your boss & asking for time off becuase you're suffering from depression, especially a typical blue collar job. This might be met with sympathy or ignorance, depends how much of an asshole is the boss. I've been to work & been to school on days I should of been at home due to how sick I was. How I view it, you can deal with going to work, unless you're tipping on the edge where you might shoot up the place. That's another thing I should talk about, this whole stereotyping of shit like "Oh, that guy is quiet. The quiet ones end up being the ones who shoot up the place." Here's a thought, maybe they aren't talking alot because they can't relate to 99% of the world. We got too many people out there assuming shit & not actually investigating as to whether the rumors are true or not. We also gotta quit with the whole 'Everyone with colored hair is a shooter!' Like I said earlier, I hate how these school shooters are enabled by the wrong people & it's easier to blame guns and the type of media those assholes liked rather than how their mental state was going.
Alright, enough doom & gloom & talk of shootings, I spent way too much time talking about depression. I also want to touch upon Aspergers (Not Assburgers) & Autism, because those two remind me that we still live in a pretty albeist society. I don't think it's a secret that here in America we got this battle between science & stupid people. There's that myth that vaccines cause autism & sadly that myth caught on too strong. So strong that when the news broke I was both laughing my ass off & appalled that people would believe this, all because some bitch with a 'May I speak to your manager' haircut said so....on Fox Nooze!! I don't think I'll get arguments by saying this, but...people (Kids to adults) with autism or aspergers (I know someone will school me that those two are very different from each other, but I kinda see them in the same arena) are just like you or me, they just have different ticks or ways at looking & acting at stuff. I feel Fox News & all these idiots literally hate people with aspergers & autism. Why make a big shit out of aspergers & you know what? All these people who kept their kids from getting vaccinated are, sadly, paying the price. Measels outbreaks, fucking whooping cough made a comeback. Yeah, everything's all retro! 'Saved By The Bell' reruns, denim jackets made a comeback, fucking WHOOPING COUGH! There has been no scientific proof that autism or aspergers just emerged out of kids after a vaccine. Then there's those stories of kids getting kicked out of school, all because of the kid's autism. While some of it was an issue of the teachers not being able to handle it, there are the few where the teacher was a complete asshole & assesed the problem in the most inhumane way possible. While I am all for having the kid go into a special kind of classroom where they can be handled by people who can handle such matters, I also have to look at it from the kid's perspective & feel in the long run this will be a scar on his reputation. How so? I tend to see it the way I saw my experiences with a learning dissability the same way I see this matter. I had to be yanked out of class for my RSP teaching. Most of the time I would be taken out of class when the teacher wanted to do something awesome like a science experiment or to watch a movie. I got yanked out when I was about to watch 'The Lion King' and that really really reaaaalllyyyy pissed me off. Afterwards I would get the questions from classmates asking why I was always being taken out of class, rumors would swim about & from grade school to middle school (More so in grade school) it felt an inflicted pain in the ass that I was never going to get out of RSP & go to class like a normal student. Middle school was different since they dedicated a specific class for RSP, but I wasn't eligible for electives in 8th grade because of RSP. So while all the kids got to be TA's or learn computers, I was at RSP class. Then the rest of those three or two years in high scool I was not part of any RSP class, nor did I have to have those meetings with the RSP teacher & my parents. Oh good god, you normal kids got parent/teacher confrences once a year, I had to get that shit twice a year. I felt normal in those final years of high school, I was like everyone who didn't need RSP classses anymore. Then I hit senior year, the possibilities for me felt endless, I was in an AP english class. That was some extra level shit & I was on top of the world Maw.....that was until I get sent to the library with all the other RSP kids being told "Here are your possibilities for the future! We're gonna take a field trip to a Community college (Which is not bad, but compared to the other kids going to UCLA, USC or some specific technical college like a fashion art school or AI University of art), but what depressed me more & made me feel like crap was the field trip to JOB CORP! I think the biggest infliction to my confidence (More than those field trips) was being handed an envelope full of paperwork describing my learning dissability to the college councellors. I'm not guilty of having a learning dissability & neither should you people out there feel bad about having a mental dissability. I'm also not saying my learning dissability is on par with aspergers & autism or any of those dissabilities, but I can see a kid with either one of those being shoved into a classroom with other kids, being seen as an idiot (Even though kids with aspergers & autism are waaay fucking smarter than my ignorant ass), being seen as not like the rest of everyone in school, feeling like an outsider & having a moment of feeling like they're not part of normal society. That really does destroy a person's confidence & if left unattended it does mess people up in the long run. It hurts hearing the facts, but sadly in their case & in mine, it's a fact we gotta admit to ourselves so we don't get full of ourselves with our egos. We got problems that can't be ignored & I'm not just saying this about depression or learning dissabilities, but with any problem we got.
That's why I get pissed off at the people who keep stigmatising people for the way they were born & have this idea that eugenics is the way to go. I have no qualms saying that the these fucked up, Fox News assholes are all for eugenics supporters. How else to cleanse imperfections & live that atypical 1950's society these assholes boast about.
In some aspects I feel we have both evolved & devolved as a society when it comes to mental health. One thing that I noticed growing up was the change in the types of terms we use for such like Autism. It wasn't until I entered high school when I noticed that term used more & more. As a kid I thought people called that 'Acting up' or we just saw it as bad parenting because there's always that excuse of "He's just expressing himself' whenever the kid is runnng around a public place & screaming & covering their ears whenever things get loud for the kid. Then I notice that people were using the word 'Autism' or 'Aspergers' or 'ADHD' around that same time. I wouldn't be surprised that those words were used more in the medical field for a longer time before the public caught wind of those terms. I may be wrong (Though in this case I don't think I'm stretching) those names became mainstream when we started seeing more & more adverts for pharmeseuticals, especially once Ritalin became prevelant. I'm torn as to whether I should call that just a corprate way of using a household term to sell pills or if it really was people in the medical community trying to bring a broad understanding to the public about these things. Recently I saw a commercial done in that 'Coraline/Boxtrolls/Kubo' animation style which educated viewers what Autism was. I don't think in my childhood in the 90's or 2000's we would of seen a PSA like that, mainly because most of them were anti-drug, pro fire saftey PSA's. All us 90's kids sure loved to set things on fire for some reason. I can see now that some mental disorders are being given more applicable names, like 'Alhzeimers', back then it was known as 'Going senile'. I can kinda see the original term as something to shrug off. Like saying "Oh, he's just going senile. Don't sweat about it, let's continue playing GTA: San Andreas." Whereas Alhzeimers sounds serious & more complex, if you get what I mean. Going senile just sounds like something people think will go away with a lotion or something. Then there's PTSD derived from the term 'Shell Shock'. PTSD is alot more wide of a term that is used aside from war trauma. Rape victims & any other fucked up experiences that can mess with one's mental state & can cause PTSD. I've heard people who have been to prison who suffer from PTSD & mainly these are folks who were sent there on a minor charge like a drug posession charge. The justice system, it works if we keep showing you prison shows on National Geographic. I think we have given PTSD much more attention with movies like 'First Blood' (Before John Rambo became an all out American action hero), or with something on the realm of fiction like 'Mad Max' whom I consider a realistic action/pulp hero who doesn't just recover easily from stuff like any other bombastic 1980's action hero. Though clearly implied & not spoon fed to the audience, those scenes in (Yes, I'm gonna mention this movie once again. Take a drink for that Blogbabble drinking game I'm sure all of you made by now) Fury Road where max freezes up & starts flashing back to the messed up memory of his wife & kid was clearly Max suffering from PTSD. I think people suffering from PTSD (Mainly war veterans) are the ones mostly getting screwed over, especially by the people in charge of this country.
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"Herr beurr gurr!!! Mah name is Scoots Mc.RightWinger & I'm gonna cut funding for programs that help veterans adjust to society & defund PTSD programs becauzz we'z gotta save teh baybies, even though the president is gonna use that extra money to play another round of golf at a country club where the only ethnic people there are the help!! I'm gonna do diss & blame the black guy! Thenk yoo for voting for me, SKOOTS!" It's such a disturbing & hypocritical view of the fucked up right wing conservatives in this country. They talk of how the military should police the world & how we gotta send troops everywhere & start incidents & shit! Then when they come home they're all "Not my problem, them's bebe's kids! Not my fault they fought in a war I wanted to happen." It sickens me as it should everyone else.
We're a little better off now than we were in the past when it was socially acceptable calling homosexuality an 'illness', at least from the medical treatment of it. Sadly we still have people who still believe that if a guy likes a guy or a lady likes a lady, then they're just as mentally unstable as the guy who might off himself. If you want to go by that logic, being straight is also a mental illness when you think about it. But the thing is that is not the general opinion, that myth comes from obnoxious fringe groups like the Westboro Baptist church. On that same token we still got too many people out there confusing the interest in one's mental health with a weakness. You got those folks (Mainly the older generation) wanting to claim that younger generations has become weaker & fragile, but I can't agree with that genralization, for the most part. I feel we as a society notice this more and we have gotten way more depressed in recent years because of the state of the world we all live in, all this bullshit that has been accepted as normalacy like terrorism & the ever hanging apathy around us. So we're seeing alot more information on mental disorders, alot more focus on mental health & we're alot more understanding of it now (For the most part). Detractors will always be there, there will always be two sides to the issues. My issue is when people in large positions in power try to sway opinion & dismiss it as something to shrug off or not of importence. We also need to make distinctions on some things & quit sugar coating everything. I don't have depression, if I did I wouldn't be working on this blog entry right now. I would be in bed, not wanting to get out & feeling suicidal. I get sad, sadness is easy to get out of, depression not so much. But also I'm not going to say I'm this paragon of mental wealth. I got my anxieties & I've had my traumas, just like everyone else. So I can sorta understand a percent of these mental disorders, but I'm not going to act like these people who go on WebMD & say "Oh, I got that & I got this! I'm the sickest (Sickest as in really ill) person alive, I'm gonna die! Dynomite!!!" The thing I do hate is misenterpreting little social quirks as mental disorders. I don't like staring strangers in the eye not because I have ADHD or Autism or whatever, but because it's awkward, especially from old men. I don't lean that way you goddamn old guy who winked at me at my younger sister's graduation!!! ....Maybe if you were a litte more well kempt & paid me $100, we'll see! Other than that, NO! Just no.....no! Then there's people thinking I'm OCD just because I won't sleep anywhere besides my own bed. I've never been able to get into sleepovers or go camping. I do get a little anxiety when I had to sleep in my grandma's home a few years ago. Just to let the ignoramuses know, I'm far from OCD, take a look at my 'workdesk'.
I am both pissed the hell off & kinda glad, in a weird way, that my Microsoft Word app expired. That first attempt/draft of this was nine pages too long & I ran into too many tangents on this subject. So many UNRELATED tangents on this specific entry that it was damaging. I admit, I get carried away with tangents, that's why I was never good at essay writing. Then I ran into the issue I didn't want to run into, which was unintentionally sounding like a self help guru. As much as I don't want to say it, this is one where I can't sit here & say "Read this blog, it will fix all your issues." Also, I think self help gurus are a bunch of slimeball scum. They're close to being false hope charlatans like 'Peter Popov'. Thinking about my approach, I decided to do the obvious, tackle the subject the Blogababble way, the opinionated way, express my thoughts like I always do. Did you guys expect any different?
So despite expressing my hate towards Microsoft for having a 'pay to use' sales model, I gotta say that was a well needed inconvenience. Not saying inconveniences are great, but there are the few times where an inconvenience is a blessing in desguise. So in the words of the captain of the Titanic, let's sink diss bitch!
PS: Now before I get started, let me get something clear out of the way before I forget. I'm going through a few levels of mental health. I'm not saying Depression is on par with Autism or anything else on that level, I'm going through this in levels & plus I'm writing this in free form. If you want to read something more...organized (Like something from a medical journal that is only read by psychologists & doctors), I'm sure they're available for the downloading elswhere online. Go read that if you want a (I'm gonna be self depricating & honest here) more educated view on this! This is just my own little ramblings on here! I don't claim to be a medical expert, I just write what I see.
I fucking hate how this country (Can't really speak for other countries) handle the issue of mental health or mental wellness. Then again some of these places got universal health care, so there's that & nobody's working a 9 to 5 while having a broken rib because they need the money for the medical expenses. Looking into one's mental state is very much used as a last resort in many cases, but it shouldn't be. People will hold it off, not even take into account if this is a problem that could involve a psychologist or therapy until shit happens like that person explodes into an implosion doing stuff that affects everyone (Tantrums, mental breakdowns or the now turned meme going postal) & then that's when finally these fucking people sit there acting like they didn't know a single thing, giving the typical response "Wow, that person really was battling some demons." No fucking shit!! Now to be honest, it's after the fact when everyone notices the signs & that's when people feel they could have done something about it. I'm not blaming those people, I'm blaming the people that choose to ignore such matters, dismiss it as 'just a phase' or think of mental wellness as 'That hippie crap'. Then when that person finally blows up, they sit there in their fake sympathetic masks saying "I did nothing but help that poor person. It's a shame this is how he ended up messing up his life. Oh well." There's that recent word I've been hearing alot called 'Toxic People'. To those of you thinking this is some cheap millenial shit, they're not wrong. Toxic people are real & they didn't have to jump into vats of toxic waste in order to become toxic. The only toxic people I ever cared for were Troma's 'Toxic Avenger' & 'Muk' from Pokemon. Toxic people can really fuck you up & you do have to avoid them wherever you can, but the opposite can be said for people who uplift you or steer you in the right direction in life. Which brings up something I do have to tell people. It's very fucking difficult to deal with toxic people, especially if they are family, whether it be parents, cousins, uncles, aunts, Family. I've been dealing with this shit for a long ass time & I tell you, the only way to deal with them is to avoid them. I don't know about parents, seeing as I still live with mine, but all other family can go choke on a fucking rod. I don't have any contact with any of my family, half because they are a bunch of pieces of shit, others because for some reason they don't visit anymore & I do have to blame my parents for that...or the other family. I live in a very divided family & we're fucking Mexican. The bigger the family, the wider the division I guess.
Then you get the whole "We're going to pick & choose who is suffering from mental illness & who isn't!" Case in point, all these mass shootings we've been having ever since Virgina Tech in 2007. I could say even after Columbine, but at that point between 99 & 07, we weren't as inundated with mass shootings that we were between 2007 & now in 2018. I'm appalled by the recent shooting which had people debating whether it was a gun issue or a mental health issue. Hey guys, I'm gonna quote that one little girl from those taco commercials from a few years ago, "WHY NOT BOTH?" On top of that you got the racial aspect of this, if it's a brown to black person who decides to shoot up a joint, it's all a heinous crime, "Those guys deserved to get shot or sent to butt rape prison becuase all of them were born to be serial killers so thank god they were killed before the death toll rose." When a white guy goes on a shooting spree, "It's all a misunderstanding, he was expresso'ing himself & we should send him into a rehab-like mental institution/resort where he can draw shapes with crayons & go to feild trips to Sequoia Park!!" Like I said, the whole surge in mass shootings is both a mental & a gun problem, case in point that emo fuck who shot up sandy hook. I remember I was at home when that shit happened & a day after the news broke the mom of this piece of shit was on camera saying "I didn't know he was mentally messed up. I bought guns for him so he could have a stress release." That bitch is an enabler & nobody cared to blame her for it. When Treyvon Martin got shot, the news media was quick to talk about how his mom spoke ebonics & how she sounded all THUG when she spoke at the trials, making it sound like she herself started the whole thing. This is so a racial thing, remember that shooting at the country music concert in Vegas a few months back? Every YouTube news channel (Mostly Fox News, CNN, CBS) were saying it's all ISIS & some Muslim extremist trying to cramp the fun out of 'REAL 'MURICAN MUZAK'. Then it was found out the shooter was white, all of a sudden these people were clearly being hypocrites by saying, "Well you see. This man was suffering from a mental disorder where this & that happens..." Every time some white kid does some heinous shit, we see the psychologists talk & we get those Shakesperean trajedy stories of their lives & it becomes nationwide news if they're bangable (Casey Anthony). With everyone who isn't white we see the crime, then the consequence, THE END and now let's watch a viral video that was uploaded to the internet a few weeks ago. Sad truth. Not all crimes like these are mental health issues, some people are just fucking sociopaths who don't care for actual human life. Whenever cases, not just crimes, but tragedies like a suicide or something like a missing person is put into the public eye, the mental state of that person is an afterthought. I'm hazy on the facts, so correct me if I get some of the details wrong but there was a kid with a huge facination with Dungeons & Dragons, he had some mental disorder so he felt his escape lied within the game & the character he created, decided to play the part of his character & went into the sewer system where he got lost and sadly killed himself. Rather than see that the kid wasn't in the best of mental health, the sensationalistic tabloid media decides "Let's blame this pen & paper game! The devil made it to recruit people into their cult, even though it is public knowledge that the game was made by hippie nerds who love fantasy & weren't Tolkien fans. This is a fact that I can call fact, true story bro, Gary Gygax & the D&D team involved in that first incarnation of the game weren't fans of Tolkien. It happens from time to time, blame the things the person liked, rather than question whether that person was alright in the mind. Nowadays, we don't get that as much except from those dumbass fringe groups like the anti-gay leagues & the more crazier ones. I think someone from the Westboro Baptist Church said that Spongebob was making kids gay. As you can see, nobody in their right mind is banning Spongebob, the show is still on the air (That comment was made two decades ago) & parents still show their kids spongebob...mainly because all us folks who grew up watching that are now parents! Xcept meee!!!! So thankfully we aren't getting the whole "We gotta go up in arms & ban something because some murderer likes it" attitude anymore, but we're still ignoring mental health where it should apply.
Social media enables both a sorta deeper understanding of stuff like depression & any other mental disorder that we may not of been aware of, but sadly it also gives everyone this chance to say anything is a warning sign for an impending mental illness. If you go into a room & forget what you were looking for, then you have early symptoms of Alhzeimers! Thee worst one I have seen one too many times is the one where If you had a bad day in school or work & feel sad/angry for that exact day, then that means you're suffering from depression. Let's make a clarification here between depression & having a bad day or the more pedestrian term 'having the blues'. With sadness it's easy to get out of that & you're happy until more sad, angry, stupid shit that happens. With depression you could be having the best day of your life, but the depression hangs like a dark cloud above that will strike with lighting during that happy day. Depression can't just be cured by a comedy club performance, that's why people suffering from clinical depression get perscribed anti-depressants & why not everyone should go to a clinic with the intention of getting perscribed Xanax or any of those anti-depression pills. That's why I'm tired of these clickbait articles, these fucking memes & these (A term I just learned which perfectly describes what I'm about to talk about next) Tumblr Depression posts. All this shit about people using their depression (Or so they think they have depression) as a fashion statement. "Look at me, I got a xanax pill on my touge, RAWR XD." That shit annoys me because of course like anything involving a group of people & an issue (Political or not), the stupid ones end up being the voice & face of the issue, rather than the people who aren't loud, doing it for attention or shysters.These Tumblr Depression people & the clickbait sites are the reason why you have people who look at depression as some lie used for cheap sympathy or as the older generation generalizes it as "The pussification of the younger generation." The attention whores don't speak for people who are actually suffering from depression, the really depressed are just trying to make it through the day & they aren't inerested in getting likes or reblogs or reshares or retweets or any of that shit that simply won't matter in the long run. Just like everyone else who doesn't feel happy or energetic are trying to make it to happier, we're just trying to make it to those happier, simpler days.
I'm not all for sharing about depression, or typical personal problems online (Unless it's related to the topic or something where people can be able to help like a Gofundme or something like that. Oh I'll get to crowdfunding & E-Commerce sometime on here) because one of two things happen. Nobody, except those close to you, care or all you get is just text on screen that doesn't meant as much. That's how it goes, I'll get to how sometimes telling strangers personal shit is not a good idea. Then there's the anonimity of the internet, some bad comments might set someone, who's not right in the mind, off. We got suicide memes, hahahahah he dead! David Carridine, can you please sign my belt buckle? Fucked up!
If you talk about the issues in person, that's one thing, but online all you can get is text on screen. That's why I would rather talk to someone about the inner personal turmoil I'm going through in person than online where anyone can see it or where it's easier to share such personal stuff, but even then online or offline, people are capable of breaching trust. It's one of the lowest acts anyone can do. Telling somone another person's troubles is horrible & that's a fact to take with you to the bank. Dont' even give me that whole "They didn't ask if it should be kept a secret or not, so I told everyone I knew" wiseass response because the second someone comes to you for consolation or to vent, a contract of trust between friends is automatically established which requires no contract or handshake because you're both friends! Friendship trumps all! I won't share her name but there was someone from high school who came to me countless times to vent about her personal stuff. I tried my best, I admit I'm no psychologist or therapist, but here's where we both succeeded. We never told anyone about our baggage because we aren't bitches & also we were the only friends we got left. Dem post graduation blues, I tell you what. Still, I never told anyone, nor did we ever think of telling parents. We both had bad experiences with sharing our woes with people, both to so-called friends & family, so we opened up to eachother & I admit that was very therapeutic for both of us. We started talkiing online via PM/DM's, then we decided "Let's meet up in person." and so we did. Sadly that ended when our schedules didn't sync up, which sucks, but that was neither her or my problem. Blame life! That's why people don't open up so easily, because we have become the subject of many chatty discussions & the worst part is having some random stranger (That your friends & family know more than you do) coming up to you either giving advice or cheap sympathy or pity. I know, the intentions are well & all, but they don't see that this is an issue that was meant to be spoken of in private, not to anyone else. Unless you're a therapist or know of someone who went through the same shit, you are just a nosy, chatty bastard bringing up ones personal problems & possibly a drama whore who jerks off to real life drama. They exist, I'm not exaggerating. Nobody needs to know about my life or my traumas or the things that keep me from living a normal life like everyone else. If I want to talk about my turmoils, maybe I will if I feel like it. Even though I feel I can handle problems myself, there are moments when I do have to tell people about specific stuff or else the wrong people will start spreading rhumors & of course we live in such a world where people would rather believe in rhumors than to believe the fact. Crying 'Fake News' won't help none in this instance, oh but it works well when talking about the bullshit. Once again I can't shake off talking politics. Despite what I said, you do get strangers who just outright tell everyone about their problems & there have been way too many times where I had to stand by & hear of some guy's divorce or family home in San Diego or their messed up little mental disorders. I must emanate some kinda scent that tells people "Hey, I like to hear people's personal problems. Tell me how you lost faith in the political system when Eisenhower got into office!" I hear alot of sad shit, can't one of these people tell me some good news? My only guess (correct me if I'm wrong) is these people are using this method as a last resort, being ignored alot can do that. Not everyone can afford a therapist, or in the case of here in California, all the therapists are in rich people areas! That says alot about the state of the class system there. Despite not wanting to hear it, I won't go out & yell at these people for telling me their depressing stories. All I can do is listen, nod & provide some input. The last thing you want to do is ignore them, but also you do have to admit to them that you can't solve thier problems, as much as we would like something that will fix everything. I think that works more than setting someone up for failure.
To add to what I just said & including the internet, (Now we're back on topic) I guess that's also why people share their personal shit on Facebook, it's mostly a cry for help, but also people love to feed into that trouble. That's why Reality Television was as poopular as it was. The issue of mental health even extends to the internet content creators. Of course you got people who will not mention their personal stuff anywhere, they are keeping it away from the public because why should you guys know about that. I won't be surprised if a few decades from now there are all these tell-all books & documentaries that go through the mental stuff from people like Nostalia Critic or AVGN & how these videos either made it better or worse. You also have the people who will talk about it, but talk about it as themselves on camera, without the costume or the persona they bring about in their work.
One video I highly reccomend (but sadly he took it down. Don't know the reason but I understand) where Brad Jones talked about his scuffles with suicide & I liked it. It was very informative, it got people talking & in a strange way he tried to make some light humor of it, but not enough to deviate from the point of his video. Then you get the ones that use their public persona to talk about it & I think that approach goes into a very dangerous area. For example, Spoony. I'm not going to judge him for what he did on one of those 'Ultima' video game reviews. It was a later release (When they went 3D) in which Spoony becomes so angry & frustrated at the game, the review stops, he leaves off camera & comes back with a stack of all his Ultima games. It's all quiet, he starts talking about how he would spend days with his brother playing these games until it gets him into a bit of a rage on camera. This isn't some rage done for humor, this was real rage. I have no idea what he was going through, but I don't hold anything against him. He must have been going through some heavy shit & I don't think this was just a typical 'Bad day' as anyone would call it. Now, everyone in his fanbase was willing to help, show support, being cool about it. You won't get any arguments from me about that & throughout the years it was clear he was suffering from either depresion or a bipolar disorder. Where I will be saying "You're being an asshole & taking advantage of your support group." is with what he's done this past year or two. He's been saying all his projects are on hold until he can deal with his mental state for over two years now, making promises of projects he wants to work on. I think he wanted to make a 'Spoony' movie around the same time people like Brad Jones, Linkara & James Rolfe were making movies out of their characters. That was a few years ago & he decided he should get paid for doing streams where all he does is talk shit to his audience who are just helping him or asking him legit questions as to whether he'll do anything else besides live streams. I think then & there your fans are loosing respect for you & you are using your problems to be a dick to everyone. I'd understand if he would apologize & maybe even come out with a video updating his audience that he is trying to get to some videos done, but real life is getting in the way. Lots of content creators do that from time to time, but nah. He's busy doing live streams & bullshitting his audience. I know he's not reading this, but if you are reading this Spoony (Noah Antwiler), take what I just said here as advice & not as a harsh display of hate. I do miss the movie reviews, especially for cheesey, corny shit like those Reb Brown movies (Specifically that one where Reb Brown is a soldier strangling women. I'm not joking. His review of that movie was hilarious as hell) & those VHS board games. I like your video game reviews & movie reviews, but those goddamn video game streams, they're cool once every two months or once a year, but everyone is sick of those video game streams. Please do something else.
I mentioned people taking time off their creative endevors or internet job in order to deal with personal stuff. That's understandable, but the ones that I may have to be a little critical about are the ones that say "I have depression, I have to take some time off." and they end up spending more than a few months off. Now if you do have depression & work on videos where you have to be happy all the time, that's very understandable. Here's what I want to know, how many times does something like that work at a typical 9 to 5 job? I tend to think not as much as we would like to think. Imagine going up to your boss & asking for time off becuase you're suffering from depression, especially a typical blue collar job. This might be met with sympathy or ignorance, depends how much of an asshole is the boss. I've been to work & been to school on days I should of been at home due to how sick I was. How I view it, you can deal with going to work, unless you're tipping on the edge where you might shoot up the place. That's another thing I should talk about, this whole stereotyping of shit like "Oh, that guy is quiet. The quiet ones end up being the ones who shoot up the place." Here's a thought, maybe they aren't talking alot because they can't relate to 99% of the world. We got too many people out there assuming shit & not actually investigating as to whether the rumors are true or not. We also gotta quit with the whole 'Everyone with colored hair is a shooter!' Like I said earlier, I hate how these school shooters are enabled by the wrong people & it's easier to blame guns and the type of media those assholes liked rather than how their mental state was going.
Alright, enough doom & gloom & talk of shootings, I spent way too much time talking about depression. I also want to touch upon Aspergers (Not Assburgers) & Autism, because those two remind me that we still live in a pretty albeist society. I don't think it's a secret that here in America we got this battle between science & stupid people. There's that myth that vaccines cause autism & sadly that myth caught on too strong. So strong that when the news broke I was both laughing my ass off & appalled that people would believe this, all because some bitch with a 'May I speak to your manager' haircut said so....on Fox Nooze!! I don't think I'll get arguments by saying this, but...people (Kids to adults) with autism or aspergers (I know someone will school me that those two are very different from each other, but I kinda see them in the same arena) are just like you or me, they just have different ticks or ways at looking & acting at stuff. I feel Fox News & all these idiots literally hate people with aspergers & autism. Why make a big shit out of aspergers & you know what? All these people who kept their kids from getting vaccinated are, sadly, paying the price. Measels outbreaks, fucking whooping cough made a comeback. Yeah, everything's all retro! 'Saved By The Bell' reruns, denim jackets made a comeback, fucking WHOOPING COUGH! There has been no scientific proof that autism or aspergers just emerged out of kids after a vaccine. Then there's those stories of kids getting kicked out of school, all because of the kid's autism. While some of it was an issue of the teachers not being able to handle it, there are the few where the teacher was a complete asshole & assesed the problem in the most inhumane way possible. While I am all for having the kid go into a special kind of classroom where they can be handled by people who can handle such matters, I also have to look at it from the kid's perspective & feel in the long run this will be a scar on his reputation. How so? I tend to see it the way I saw my experiences with a learning dissability the same way I see this matter. I had to be yanked out of class for my RSP teaching. Most of the time I would be taken out of class when the teacher wanted to do something awesome like a science experiment or to watch a movie. I got yanked out when I was about to watch 'The Lion King' and that really really reaaaalllyyyy pissed me off. Afterwards I would get the questions from classmates asking why I was always being taken out of class, rumors would swim about & from grade school to middle school (More so in grade school) it felt an inflicted pain in the ass that I was never going to get out of RSP & go to class like a normal student. Middle school was different since they dedicated a specific class for RSP, but I wasn't eligible for electives in 8th grade because of RSP. So while all the kids got to be TA's or learn computers, I was at RSP class. Then the rest of those three or two years in high scool I was not part of any RSP class, nor did I have to have those meetings with the RSP teacher & my parents. Oh good god, you normal kids got parent/teacher confrences once a year, I had to get that shit twice a year. I felt normal in those final years of high school, I was like everyone who didn't need RSP classses anymore. Then I hit senior year, the possibilities for me felt endless, I was in an AP english class. That was some extra level shit & I was on top of the world Maw.....that was until I get sent to the library with all the other RSP kids being told "Here are your possibilities for the future! We're gonna take a field trip to a Community college (Which is not bad, but compared to the other kids going to UCLA, USC or some specific technical college like a fashion art school or AI University of art), but what depressed me more & made me feel like crap was the field trip to JOB CORP! I think the biggest infliction to my confidence (More than those field trips) was being handed an envelope full of paperwork describing my learning dissability to the college councellors. I'm not guilty of having a learning dissability & neither should you people out there feel bad about having a mental dissability. I'm also not saying my learning dissability is on par with aspergers & autism or any of those dissabilities, but I can see a kid with either one of those being shoved into a classroom with other kids, being seen as an idiot (Even though kids with aspergers & autism are waaay fucking smarter than my ignorant ass), being seen as not like the rest of everyone in school, feeling like an outsider & having a moment of feeling like they're not part of normal society. That really does destroy a person's confidence & if left unattended it does mess people up in the long run. It hurts hearing the facts, but sadly in their case & in mine, it's a fact we gotta admit to ourselves so we don't get full of ourselves with our egos. We got problems that can't be ignored & I'm not just saying this about depression or learning dissabilities, but with any problem we got.
That's why I get pissed off at the people who keep stigmatising people for the way they were born & have this idea that eugenics is the way to go. I have no qualms saying that the these fucked up, Fox News assholes are all for eugenics supporters. How else to cleanse imperfections & live that atypical 1950's society these assholes boast about.
In some aspects I feel we have both evolved & devolved as a society when it comes to mental health. One thing that I noticed growing up was the change in the types of terms we use for such like Autism. It wasn't until I entered high school when I noticed that term used more & more. As a kid I thought people called that 'Acting up' or we just saw it as bad parenting because there's always that excuse of "He's just expressing himself' whenever the kid is runnng around a public place & screaming & covering their ears whenever things get loud for the kid. Then I notice that people were using the word 'Autism' or 'Aspergers' or 'ADHD' around that same time. I wouldn't be surprised that those words were used more in the medical field for a longer time before the public caught wind of those terms. I may be wrong (Though in this case I don't think I'm stretching) those names became mainstream when we started seeing more & more adverts for pharmeseuticals, especially once Ritalin became prevelant. I'm torn as to whether I should call that just a corprate way of using a household term to sell pills or if it really was people in the medical community trying to bring a broad understanding to the public about these things. Recently I saw a commercial done in that 'Coraline/Boxtrolls/Kubo' animation style which educated viewers what Autism was. I don't think in my childhood in the 90's or 2000's we would of seen a PSA like that, mainly because most of them were anti-drug, pro fire saftey PSA's. All us 90's kids sure loved to set things on fire for some reason. I can see now that some mental disorders are being given more applicable names, like 'Alhzeimers', back then it was known as 'Going senile'. I can kinda see the original term as something to shrug off. Like saying "Oh, he's just going senile. Don't sweat about it, let's continue playing GTA: San Andreas." Whereas Alhzeimers sounds serious & more complex, if you get what I mean. Going senile just sounds like something people think will go away with a lotion or something. Then there's PTSD derived from the term 'Shell Shock'. PTSD is alot more wide of a term that is used aside from war trauma. Rape victims & any other fucked up experiences that can mess with one's mental state & can cause PTSD. I've heard people who have been to prison who suffer from PTSD & mainly these are folks who were sent there on a minor charge like a drug posession charge. The justice system, it works if we keep showing you prison shows on National Geographic. I think we have given PTSD much more attention with movies like 'First Blood' (Before John Rambo became an all out American action hero), or with something on the realm of fiction like 'Mad Max' whom I consider a realistic action/pulp hero who doesn't just recover easily from stuff like any other bombastic 1980's action hero. Though clearly implied & not spoon fed to the audience, those scenes in (Yes, I'm gonna mention this movie once again. Take a drink for that Blogbabble drinking game I'm sure all of you made by now) Fury Road where max freezes up & starts flashing back to the messed up memory of his wife & kid was clearly Max suffering from PTSD. I think people suffering from PTSD (Mainly war veterans) are the ones mostly getting screwed over, especially by the people in charge of this country.
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"Herr beurr gurr!!! Mah name is Scoots Mc.RightWinger & I'm gonna cut funding for programs that help veterans adjust to society & defund PTSD programs becauzz we'z gotta save teh baybies, even though the president is gonna use that extra money to play another round of golf at a country club where the only ethnic people there are the help!! I'm gonna do diss & blame the black guy! Thenk yoo for voting for me, SKOOTS!" It's such a disturbing & hypocritical view of the fucked up right wing conservatives in this country. They talk of how the military should police the world & how we gotta send troops everywhere & start incidents & shit! Then when they come home they're all "Not my problem, them's bebe's kids! Not my fault they fought in a war I wanted to happen." It sickens me as it should everyone else.
We're a little better off now than we were in the past when it was socially acceptable calling homosexuality an 'illness', at least from the medical treatment of it. Sadly we still have people who still believe that if a guy likes a guy or a lady likes a lady, then they're just as mentally unstable as the guy who might off himself. If you want to go by that logic, being straight is also a mental illness when you think about it. But the thing is that is not the general opinion, that myth comes from obnoxious fringe groups like the Westboro Baptist church. On that same token we still got too many people out there confusing the interest in one's mental health with a weakness. You got those folks (Mainly the older generation) wanting to claim that younger generations has become weaker & fragile, but I can't agree with that genralization, for the most part. I feel we as a society notice this more and we have gotten way more depressed in recent years because of the state of the world we all live in, all this bullshit that has been accepted as normalacy like terrorism & the ever hanging apathy around us. So we're seeing alot more information on mental disorders, alot more focus on mental health & we're alot more understanding of it now (For the most part). Detractors will always be there, there will always be two sides to the issues. My issue is when people in large positions in power try to sway opinion & dismiss it as something to shrug off or not of importence. We also need to make distinctions on some things & quit sugar coating everything. I don't have depression, if I did I wouldn't be working on this blog entry right now. I would be in bed, not wanting to get out & feeling suicidal. I get sad, sadness is easy to get out of, depression not so much. But also I'm not going to say I'm this paragon of mental wealth. I got my anxieties & I've had my traumas, just like everyone else. So I can sorta understand a percent of these mental disorders, but I'm not going to act like these people who go on WebMD & say "Oh, I got that & I got this! I'm the sickest (Sickest as in really ill) person alive, I'm gonna die! Dynomite!!!" The thing I do hate is misenterpreting little social quirks as mental disorders. I don't like staring strangers in the eye not because I have ADHD or Autism or whatever, but because it's awkward, especially from old men. I don't lean that way you goddamn old guy who winked at me at my younger sister's graduation!!! ....Maybe if you were a litte more well kempt & paid me $100, we'll see! Other than that, NO! Just no.....no! Then there's people thinking I'm OCD just because I won't sleep anywhere besides my own bed. I've never been able to get into sleepovers or go camping. I do get a little anxiety when I had to sleep in my grandma's home a few years ago. Just to let the ignoramuses know, I'm far from OCD, take a look at my 'workdesk'.
I know I just made a few of you people who actually are OCD uncomfortable & angry with that picture. I'm sorry guys. Going back to what I said about those clickbait articles, shit articles like 'If you don't like to deal with conflict, then you may be suffering from ...I don't know....Gooberry's Disorder" aren't fact! I just made up 'Gooberry's Disorder', let's see how many people think they got that disorder. We got so much misinformation as well as a little more information than what was shown before.
To end this, we're advancing, I can see that. Still, we're far from a utopia where nobody gets on anybody's case for being different, acting different or dealing with a mental state that is different. Depression & anxiety aren't jokes, the people who are using that for attention are making it jokes & honestly, they can go choke on a fucking rod. Depression isn't some kinda weakness like these macho assholes call it. I bet you those same folks who keep on saying trite shit like "Only pussies get depressed" will be whistling a different tune when they get depression themselves *Whiney voice "It's different!" Also, the TSA & police have to stop beating up or tackling or doing fucked up shit to autistic & down syndrome people. I'm sick & tired of hearing some asshole who decides to act like some hero beating up on those guys because "He's acting 'strange', better call in some backup because they're hiding something!" Pissing me off with that shit. I think most of Europe has it down perfectly. Can't remember what country it was, but there is a country where they built like a little miniature city to help people with dementia. I don't know how that helps, but then again I haven't had time to read up on dementia.
Like I said earlier, this was just freeform rambling of mine. I'm not a huge expert on this, I just spoke of what I knew & I hope I got a dialogue going. I think the only thing we can do is talk about it & if someone comes up to you talking about their troubles, give them a listen & never break that contract of trust. This is one where I would like to hear from people. Did I get something wrong? Please school me if I did get something wrong. This is one where I would love to hear from people, especially from those of you working or studying what I just discussed.
If you need some help, get some help. Talk to those close to you & let it be known that you are important.
Next time, I am unclear as of the topic. All I know is alot of shit happened in the news while I was writing this. Alot in politics, alot in entertainment. I'm not clear as to which was what? Politics & entertainment, entwined as one. Sex is the new punk rock & violence is the old pastime!
Thank you all for joining me in this new entry of 'Blogbabble'. Stick around, I got plenty of more stuff to talk about.
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To end this, we're advancing, I can see that. Still, we're far from a utopia where nobody gets on anybody's case for being different, acting different or dealing with a mental state that is different. Depression & anxiety aren't jokes, the people who are using that for attention are making it jokes & honestly, they can go choke on a fucking rod. Depression isn't some kinda weakness like these macho assholes call it. I bet you those same folks who keep on saying trite shit like "Only pussies get depressed" will be whistling a different tune when they get depression themselves *Whiney voice "It's different!" Also, the TSA & police have to stop beating up or tackling or doing fucked up shit to autistic & down syndrome people. I'm sick & tired of hearing some asshole who decides to act like some hero beating up on those guys because "He's acting 'strange', better call in some backup because they're hiding something!" Pissing me off with that shit. I think most of Europe has it down perfectly. Can't remember what country it was, but there is a country where they built like a little miniature city to help people with dementia. I don't know how that helps, but then again I haven't had time to read up on dementia.
Like I said earlier, this was just freeform rambling of mine. I'm not a huge expert on this, I just spoke of what I knew & I hope I got a dialogue going. I think the only thing we can do is talk about it & if someone comes up to you talking about their troubles, give them a listen & never break that contract of trust. This is one where I would like to hear from people. Did I get something wrong? Please school me if I did get something wrong. This is one where I would love to hear from people, especially from those of you working or studying what I just discussed.
If you need some help, get some help. Talk to those close to you & let it be known that you are important.
Next time, I am unclear as of the topic. All I know is alot of shit happened in the news while I was writing this. Alot in politics, alot in entertainment. I'm not clear as to which was what? Politics & entertainment, entwined as one. Sex is the new punk rock & violence is the old pastime!
Thank you all for joining me in this new entry of 'Blogbabble'. Stick around, I got plenty of more stuff to talk about.
Email: blacktime.epress@aol.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/BlackTimeEPress/
Twitter: We’re rebooting that damn page. Too many hoes on that motherfucking meal, artificially asking how a motherfucker feels.
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/blacktime-e-press
Site: www.blacktimepress.weeby.com
Add us on Steam.